Weekend already!!!!

At last, it's weekend already! i really do love weekends!!!! the whole week has always been a stressful days for me... don't ask why i know you understand... imagine i have to walk up to the stairs, slowly to make sure i'm not slipping off... and in my condition it's very very hard... to be in the shoes of a person that is one of a kind... naks!

the elevator is out of order until now and i wonder when will they fix it?!!?! speaking of disappointments in life, i have a lot more to share...just kidding... i failed a first quiz in my philcon subj. how pathetic am i?!!!! but that's life, i'll just try my best to make it next time... sometimes, people has the tendency to underestimate other people's abilities especially when it comes to academics. they try to focus on what they see in their naked eye rather on the things that comes from within which is more valuable than any other gold... i do always tried not to be bitter about other people's actuations against me, but there are times that they get into my nerves and i started hating them...i admit it, i'm not a people-pleaser nor i'm pre-judging them... all i'm saying is that I was born with an abnormalities and what's wrong with that?! why can't they see me as me... a person who keeps on searching her place in this society like any other normal person does...why can't they see that a handicapped person also have the ability and the potential like an average person does??? I don't keep any bitterness inside me but that's what i observe in a society that we have... somehow, what do we expect pa nga ba?? people already blinded their eyes to hide their own imperfections and they focus on the imperfection of others... without their knowledge, that's totally stupid! all of us don't have the right to question other people's strengths and weaknesses because that's the way they are... God created us in a unique way that He's the only one that has the right to question us... but he never did, and he will never did... and thanks to him because if He did who can stand it???of course no person can stand it... coz admit it or not we're not perfect... we have our shortcomings, weaknesses, frustrations, and disappointments that's inside in all of us...

sorry, i got carried away...come to think of it, that all i'm saying here is true and it's happening...even if we are aware or not...
i guess, it would be enough for now... i really need some rest... later, i'll have to study my notes... i'm not depressed, i just want to share something or whatsoever that's all... see yah

Only 4 2day!

As I’m standing in front of you today, I’m not asking for you to pity me or whatsoever, I’ve gone through a lot in my life, which I know you can never withstand it. I don’t want to sound bitter here.. But, just spare me your time to listen, Be aware of my yearnings and needs, Nurture me like any other normal kids, Talk to me in a gentle manner as if you are my closest friend, Comfort me when I’m weary, Because this world makes me so teary
Protect me from any harm, I do hope it makes you alarm. Guide me through all the rest of my life,
Because I really want to give up this fight, Help me to see in a different perspective like yours,
For me not to be blinded by the things I seen, Grant me your wisdom to do justice in all things,
Cleanse me from all the troubles and wearies of the world, Strengthen me to endure these difficult days,
When people love only in a selfish ways, Teach me to love and accept myself as you did before me,
So that I could also love my neighbors in return, And above all, please hold me to be always faithful in you in many ways, Even if it’s only for today…

I CAN MAKE IT!!!!!!

I have no classes today... still here... well i don't know, what i really felt. i guess, i'm tired, upset, worried; a mixed of everything?! uhmm, college??? stressful... but on the lighter side, at least there are some changes happening on my everyday routine.. i really hate when people stares at me as if they want to degrade me as person... it hurts me so much!!! feels like i'm fading away... its not my fault to be born like this, to be like an outcasts in this society... i know, i cannot please everybody. but why do i mind them anyway?! i'm not living my life to live up to their expectations...why don't they see that i am only me???!!!!!!!
I know, deep within me.. I CAN MAKE IT!!!! i'll prove something to them...please Jah strengthen me to stand up against this people, i know, i have a long, long way to go... give me the wisdom to view things in your perspective... always grant me with your loving-kindness to endure in this difficult times...comfort me in a times like this where people love only themselves...