Hey! Come on! I'm Still Here!!!

it's been a long time since i've been confined here at home, i guess it would take about 2 months now already. wow, i have a feelin' that so many things changed outside.. i don't know... anyway, how i wish things would get better for me this time... how i long that day when this itchy-uncomfortable casts get its way out of me......*sighs*

i'm really trying my best to get better.... i just can't stop questioning myself, am I really move on? I want to get over all the negative stuff hanging at the back of my mind. I don't want to sound so bitter about my life or to those people who at least cared for me. I don't want to be unfair to them for not giving them second chances.
i have a fear that i would regret it in the end.

Jah God, just give me time to forget and sort out things from all the negative aspects of my life.... that was what i'm asking to God everyday of my life... it's so easy to speculate things in front of other people's face especially when you're not in his position that... and say, "yea i already forgiven you but deep inside the hurt and bitterness to that certain person is still there." Sometimes, there are thing in life that we can't even imagine will happen to each and ev'ry one of us, and it's sad....

Like what I said, i don't want any longer to be haunted by those kind of feeling and emotion all throughout my life... I just want to live my life as it is with no feeling of regrets or whatsover. I'm not complaining or anything but that's what I felt in these past few months...

Anyways, hey, this blog stuff can really help... I just realized it lately especially of what I'm going through. I can't find any outlet on how to blow off this emotions or in a way it makes my life sane... I don't know, how about you? It's one of the things that makes me stress-free...

I really love to write. Anything that can washed out all the negative thoughts in my mind. aside from that, lately i discover how to changed or looked for really nice stuff for my blog. It's a nice therapy for me.

I'll let you get updated about me whenever I can. This would be enough for now! (**) (*P)