My Inner thoughts for today!

I've been away for a couple of weeks now but I guess who cares. Right?! Honestly, I'm having a hard time with myself. I can't describe on what is this I'm going through these past few days. Yeah, my mind is upset to everything going on. I wasn't sure on how am I going to cope up and overcome all of this or how long it gonna last. It's really hard living on the same kind of life that is beyond from my wildest dream. I don't want to sound as if I'm the biggest loser in this fight, I have no choice but to continue or else I may end up dying. It is either of the two. Its a damn thing that I am one of the product or a victim of broken families. It is the worst thing that ever happen to me. I never wish to end up being like this, never in my entire life...

It is easy to say judgment coming from people who really don't know you personally. I was pissed off to what they are acting when I'm around. I can stand their blah-blahs like you're supposed to do this and that...whatsoever. What do they think of me?? Huh?! a gullible person, who would right away believe in their stupid schemes, am I really out of my mind to do that?! I don't think so. No one has the right to dictate me what should I believe on because this is me, I am what I am and they can never change that. All I want is a little respect, I guess everybody deserves it...

Who Put the Weight of the World on My shoulders?

Somehow, there's a significance in the title because that's what I'm feeling right now. Anyway, tomorrow is gonna be our Foundation Day. Everyone gets excited but not me that is why I'm staying up late right now infront of the computer. At least, I got the chance to have some breather after all the midterm exams has just ended not quite for some time now. Last week, I just turned 20 and the thing is that I really don't mind if I do because I don't look that I am. It's just that it depresses me so much about myself because it seems that there so many things that I always wanted to do but there's no way I could break through. I just hope and pray that things would just be better so that eventually I could graduate in college. Well, that is life, its how it is...let's just see and wait for better things to come but of course we have to work on it.

What else, DAMN I really had a boring life! How I wish, here I go again. A lot of wishes. No, I really just feel helpless and frustrated about the circumstances I'm going through right now. Maybe, I was just lack of sleep or something...

Anyway, regarding my exams last week I guess it would turn out to be quite good I do hope so. I was just scared about the result of my math exams. I really do hate numbers even before but not like right now, I hated it. I have no problem when it comes to sciences and literature because for me it somekind of an interesting subject to learn. In my case, somehow its interrelated because I'm taking up Psychology. But the problem is that my mind is still not fixed on any specialization on that field because obviously its a broad subject matter. Somehow, I hope you know what I'm talking about.

In the other hand, If you're reading my blog please stop sending me some comments about nonsensible things like I had before. You know what, I'm not blogging because I just want to be hip or whatsoever. I'm here somehow to share my inner thoughts that you never know. Actually, I was insecure of talking to people about what's going on with my life or my opinion unless they ask me about it. I was not a difficult person to handle, it's just that I'm always misunderstood by what others see me. I'm open to a lot of people in different genres but most often I love to have some conversation with those people who are older than me because I learned a lot from them regarding life in a different perspective. But to a young people like my age, I really don't know if they would see me open as a friend. Well, if you had some sensible thing to say to me or anything under the sun, don't hesitate because I really love to hear from you. That's all. Thanks. Have a nice day!