Something that Enlightens Me!

I woke up this morning with pain in my both legs. I feel so uneasy especially these days, well I can do nothing but just to go on through out the day. I miss school... everything about school... How I wish I could enroll next semester if things will be alright. I hate to complain so I'll just try to live it up. Anyway, I have one month to go...

What's up with you guys? I don't know if anyone cared? Well, I'm just enjoying my stay here as long as I'm still at home be'coz the moment I'll stepped at the school again I know that I have no time for this. Yeah, school is really time consuming at the same time stressful and enjoyable. I know, you all agree. About what I learned this past few months, I really don't know if I'm really learning that much.

You see, life at home is so idle and dull... and watching TV is not the answer to stop the boredom throughout the day... I'm not a couch-potato like you guys does...:P I guess, I learned something, it's quite simple. I learrned the virtue of patience that there is a proper time for everything like for me to heal. A time to eat, A time to weep, A time to sleep! Am I correct? Let's see!

Like what the Holy Bible says, Ecclesiastes 3:1-15:
"For everything there is an appointed time, even a time for every affair under the heavens:
2 a time for birth and a time to die; a time to plant and a time to uproot what was planted;
3 a time to kill and a time to heal; a time to break down and a time to build;
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh; a time to wail and a time to skip about;
5 a time to throw stones away and a time to bring stones together; a time to embrace and a time to keep away from embracing;
6 a time to seek and a time to give up as lost; a time to keep and a time to throw away;
7 a time to rip apart and a time to sew together; a time to keep quiet and a time to speak;
8 a time to love and a time to hate; a time for war and a time for peace.
9 What advantage is there for the doer in what he is working hard at?
10 I have seen the occupation that God has given to the sons of mankind in which to be occupied. 11 Everything he has made pretty in its time. Even time indefinite he has put in their heart, that mankind may never find out the work that the [true] God has made from the start to the finish.
12 I have come to know that there is nothing better for them than to rejoice and to do good during one’s life; 13 and also that every man should eat and indeed drink and see good for all his hard work. It is the gift of God.
14 I have come to know that everything that the [true] God makes, it will prove to be to time indefinite. To it there is nothing to add and from it there is nothing to subtract; but the [true] God himself has made it, that people may be afraid on account of him.
15 What has happened to be, it had already been, and what is to come to be has already proved to be; and the [true] God himself keeps seeking that which is pursued.

This scriptures really enlightens me especially these days when we it seems that things are not going on your way and left you feeling burn-out. I know, all of us. I hope it enlightens and refresh you too. We all need a breather for once in a while so that we can recharge our empty souls and set aside our negativities about Life, Responsiblities, Unfinished Business, can I say School, we'll never know!

I'll keep you posted! *sigh* ( ^_^) (P)

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wow!! new designs! (**)(P)

Feelin' so screwed Up!

I'm in another bad mood today...

Well, I don't know why I just can't stop myself from thinking and worrying. Why can't this moment just passed by as if nothing happens. I really want to cry to ease the pain... just to have a breather for awhile 'coz I'm tired of waiting... I'm sick of being fed up and left out at the same time.

Pain, why can't you please leave me alone just for a minute or two...

Hey! Come on! I'm Still Here!!!

it's been a long time since i've been confined here at home, i guess it would take about 2 months now already. wow, i have a feelin' that so many things changed outside.. i don't know... anyway, how i wish things would get better for me this time... how i long that day when this itchy-uncomfortable casts get its way out of me......*sighs*

i'm really trying my best to get better.... i just can't stop questioning myself, am I really move on? I want to get over all the negative stuff hanging at the back of my mind. I don't want to sound so bitter about my life or to those people who at least cared for me. I don't want to be unfair to them for not giving them second chances.
i have a fear that i would regret it in the end.

Jah God, just give me time to forget and sort out things from all the negative aspects of my life.... that was what i'm asking to God everyday of my life... it's so easy to speculate things in front of other people's face especially when you're not in his position that... and say, "yea i already forgiven you but deep inside the hurt and bitterness to that certain person is still there." Sometimes, there are thing in life that we can't even imagine will happen to each and ev'ry one of us, and it's sad....

Like what I said, i don't want any longer to be haunted by those kind of feeling and emotion all throughout my life... I just want to live my life as it is with no feeling of regrets or whatsover. I'm not complaining or anything but that's what I felt in these past few months...

Anyways, hey, this blog stuff can really help... I just realized it lately especially of what I'm going through. I can't find any outlet on how to blow off this emotions or in a way it makes my life sane... I don't know, how about you? It's one of the things that makes me stress-free...

I really love to write. Anything that can washed out all the negative thoughts in my mind. aside from that, lately i discover how to changed or looked for really nice stuff for my blog. It's a nice therapy for me.

I'll let you get updated about me whenever I can. This would be enough for now! (**) (*P)

Silence

An ordinary face, a masterpiece of God, Am I?
Darkness falls behind my back,
Or its just faith that I lack?
Alone melancholy,
Sitting beneath the shadows of hope
I couldn't gain
My mind is raveling like an empty chair
In this kind of life, I couldn't bear
All I can hear is silence
That screams...murmuring...whispering... at my presence,
Sounds as a crystal clear
Clinging up to the tip of my ear,
Helplessly haunting me day & night,
All throughout my life...

One day... I'm gonna...

One day...
I'm gonna get up on my crampy bed
To see the beauty of life lies ahead
And feel the scorching heat
Of the sun under my feet.

One day...
I'm gonna dry up my tears
Just to let you know
I just overcome my fears.

One day...
I'm gonna throw all my troubles away
For it not to ruin my day
And live my life freely...

Just Drop By

Hey! It's really refreshing to wake up in the morning having a nice cold bath especially in this kind weather we have in the Philippines. I don't know what this day I'm up to... I guess, this is seems to be a typical day for me.. Just being here at home waiting for the day to past by. I hope I will recover soon so that things would be easier for me to do...